Life is absolutely beautiful, even if I don’t understand every aspect of it and even when it takes time for the answers to be processed or even understood. I finally have clarity on some very interesting things. At least a profound way of expressing and putting what I am feeling into perspective.
The song that comes to mind is John Lennon’s Watching the Wheels almost as a reminder that everything is going to be alright and the only thing that I have to really worry about is staying true to myself and keeping with my dreams and goals. Just today I texted my dear friend two new incredible rules to life, quotes I plan on using as I start blogging and putting my art and ideas out into the universe. That rule is “A dream worth having is a dream worth living.” I just didn’t realize just how impactful that idea would be especially when I sent it to my friend this morning. I didn’t know the full scope of her story.
After everything that has happened to me in the past few months, I realize that despite what some people may think, the truth is that this. I took a chance and pushed my life in a direction with everything I had to give. I let the universe navigate, and I allowed things to be abstract. Many people said they were sorry for me, and others were outright upset and asked why I would ever want to go down that path again. I look at life as if I planted a beautiful idea, and we all know that it takes time for ideas and beautiful flowers to grow. All flowers bloom when it’s their time. An eternity can exist in a single moment, and a moment can be all there is at times. This is why we must live life to the fullest in every moment and never live or have regrets. I did just that. As I know that the seeds are planted in the cosmic universe all I can do is live love and run with that passion and know that everything will work out in the end.
I believe that this is a very adult way of thinking and looking at life let alone reality. It’s all us figuring it out for the first time. I haven’t stopped believing in that reality or that happening, but I know too that my life is by far more complicated than I like to believe, with depth and complexity. I am going to Japan for the fourth time, with a trip planned for Mt. Fuji.
I was surprised that my friend texted me to catch up and to invite me to lunch, which I gladly accepted and was extremely excited to have. Our karma and magic always seemingly worked out, and we were one that had the same fiery passion and intensity and lived for life. Excited to hear about her trip to New York, and find out what had happened in her life that had put her on this course.
I found out that she got the itch after watching someone on her social media living their best life. She booked her ticket, packed, and drove to Denver to catch the next plan out. She told me of how she had time to think and to truly follow her passion, much like how I went to japan to hear the beauty that life had to say. I can’t begin to describe how happy I was for her, someone who took after my spirit and embraced my attitude towards life. She told me her plan and laid out the details; in 20 days, she would be leaving and starting a leading role acting. With her car paid off and the world at her fingertips, she was well on her way. I told her that because I knew everything would work out and that in the end, we would be looking back at all our accomplishments and how hard we had worked she had to go to Japan for Japan 5.0 and even Korea 1.0 for the trip of a lifetime. I told her we would climb Mt. Fuji and make it to the top to watch the sunrise.
I was extremely excited. Not necessarily winning the Jackpot lottery, but it was most likely winning the cosmic lottery. I knew that this was more of a sure thing than anything else, another seed planted in the garden of life. I stopped by my adopted French mom’s house to share all the amazing things and because she was someone whom I could tell things without her scripting a narrative that was seemingly their narrative, nor felt pity or sorry for me that things didn’t “workout”
I decided that I would take the frist step and move forward with making my video and blogging adventure more a reality and went out and bough the last pieces needed to make my dream a reality. And completely give myself over to the dream and no longer worry about the how and when but the why not.
And I say yes to the life that is about to begin. I know I say goodbye to a life that was, to friends who got off one of the many stations that I had left, taking up their own train, and following their own path. Beyond that, I say hello and say yes to what lies ahead.